MAD
– A Personal Journey
by Lynn Carneson
McGregor
(1)
Mad stands for
‘Making a difference’.
An attempt to make a difference through Art
How does one make sense of
one’s life and the cards of fortune one has been dealt? Writing a biography of
my parents and family and creating a graphic exhibition about a difficult phase
of our lives has forced me to think more deeply about my life and how I live it
today.
Most of us are living between
two centuries and between a dying form of capitalism and new as yet unformed
ways of living both globally and locally. For me personally, I live emotionally
between two countries, South Africa and England. I find living in an
in-between-time frightening, challenging and exciting.
Everyone comes from a
difficult- to- understand past and has their own history which, in turn is
difficult for the next generation to comprehend. What each of us learns
hopefully adds to the evolution of the good in human nature so that our legacy
is a better world.
I am grateful to Joe Sinclair
for Nurturing Potential as it
provides an opportunity not only for sharing our thoughts and work, but also for
opening up a dialogue. It may be too early to have answers. What is important to
me is whether we are asking the right questions.
A year ago I launched my
exhibition called ‘Red in the Rainbow’ about what life was like in a repressive
regime by inviting visitors to journey with me, my brother and sister and my
parents who were anti-apartheid, anti-racist activists who paid for the courage
to fight injustice. It was based on my biography, Red in the Rainbow,
which was reviewed in an early edition of Nurturing Potential.
For those who read, books work. There are many others, who
respond more to visual images. I decided to create a multi-media interactive
vivid work of art in the form of a walk-through exhibition. As I wanted people
to feel what life was like in the past, I invited them to journey with my family
through some of our toughest years during Apartheid. It is an interactive
installation intended to inspire thinking about life today. One of the
definitions I used in my book, ‘Learning Through Drama’, many years ago is that
‘art is the process and medium for exploring and expressing meaning.
As a way of being more relevant today, I wrote the stories,
designed the overall exhibition and selected the texts and images. A graphic
designer was then asked to produce posters which looked more like graphic comics
than fine art so that younger people could get more involved in the journey.
The theme is about an exploration of values, beliefs and
archetypes from the past as a way of reflecting on the present and the future.
It describes what it is like to live in a repressive regime. The details are
South African but the stories are similar for any oppressive regime. It is also
about the triumph of the human spirit over adversity. Visitors have found that
they have identified with different aspects of the journey and have gone away
with renewed hope. This form of art is not fashionable at the moment, but is an
exploration to get more people involved with the content.
I have selected a few images
from the exhibition and hope that they will speak for themselves.
When
I re-read
the vision
my father
had
of the life he would like us to have,
I realised
that these values have deeply
influenced me all my life.
I ask
myself
– are they still relevant today?
Are they attainable?
When
I was sixteen,
my mother
was arrested without
trial for over six
months. She went on hunger
strike and was very
ill. My father
was in hiding.
I and my
younger
brother
John and sister Ruth were
split up although I tried
hard to keep us together.
It was devastating.
Children
writing to Sarah in jail during the Emergency
I
am very happy but I would rather be with you – John aged 7
I think a lot
about you – Ruth aged 5
Don’t cry too much – a little
crying won’t do any harm- it will relieve the tension – Lynn 16
Things got worse. My father
was arrested, tortured
and kept in solitary confinement for
thirteen months before spending
nearly six
years
with other prisoners in Pretoria
Central Prison. He never betrayed
anyone
but they
broke his faith in himself but never his spirit.
When I saw
him in prison, he was very
thin and had lost his
teeth and much of his hearing.
He could hardly walk.
The Security Police would not
let me hug him. It was heart-breaking.
Fred
was arrested
in 1967, tortured and kept in solitary
confinement for
13 months
When
my father
was in solitary confinement
for months, his cell was so small he just
had a bed role and a sanitation bucket. When
he was
given
a pencil and paper,
he wrote over two
hundred letters to us but we
were only allowed
to see two of them.
One by one we went
into exile
including my
father
when he was eventually
released
from prison.
We felt displaced,
very short of money and had to
establish ourselves in an alien county.
As part of an exiled
community kept on campaigning
for a free South Africa. Many
British people supported the campaign.
What moved me most was
the feeling
that other people were
really
concerned. How many
really
care
about what is happening in similar
countries today?
In 1991 we were told that
although it was
still dangerous, it was safe enough
to go back
to South Africa. The rest of
my family
went
back. I followed
many
years
later with huge
enthusiasm and expectations. To return
was the
worst and best decision I have ever
made
We
took part in the
first democratic
elections in South Africa. I was
elated. People of all colours were queuing,
making
friends talking to
each other
and celebrating. We were
free
to create a different and hopefully
better country.
The exhibition ends in 1994 with the liberation
of South Africa. We had
achieved
freedom.
However,
after any journey, the end always
starts another beginning
May the dialogue begin
BIODATA
(1)
Lynn Carneson McGregor
is well known internationally as a leader in the field
of corporate governance, having worked with company
boards and senior executives worldwide.
She has published four books and is currently a senior
fellow at the Corporate Governance Unit at Stellenbosch
University in South Africa.